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MRI

I resonated magnetically the other day. I became a virtual needle. It didn’t hurt at all. The way I knew was that for a brief period all my molecules lined up facing north. For a few seconds I saw everything clearly, without passion or confusion.

I saw Gerardus Mercator at a long table, poring over his projection of the known world, truth in navigation sliced like a deck of cards, thirteen organs plus the joker. It was 1569, not that long ago really, considering how long people have been at sea. He would have liked having an MRI himself, I thought, with the complex math, the radiofrequency spins and all. But he was too early. The world had only been round a few hundred years.

In Ars Medica: A Journal of Medicine, the Arts and Humanities 5, 1, 2008.

Ritual


Just going to church, nothing more,
When ritual intervenes.
I’m today’s lay assisting minister,
Donning the white robe,
Encircled in cotton rope,
Waiting to carry the cup.
The pastor lifts a wafer, placing a
Circle of grain into each
Supinated hand.
“This is the body of Christ,
Given for you.”
It starts like this.
I follow, offering a brass cup
Half-filled with crimson wine.
“This is the blood of Christ, shed for you.”
The communicant dips the wafer,
Places it on her tongue.
It ends like this.
Leaving the rail, she pushes up on the wood,
Returns to her pew.
Alongside priests, incense, chanting,
Icons, mystics, shamans,
Visions, temples, mosques,
Candles, sutras,
We breathe together,
Alive in the immediate.

Lab Tests in Graph Paper Suits

Here are
Pictures of the mind
Freewheeling through
Crossed sacred numbers,
Many-colored threads
Of reasoning laid out
Flat on their backs.
 
Open a little door
On the abscissa:
 
Ha!
The sudden lift felt
Racing over hilltops,
How the sun ignites
Grass green in spring,
What water says
Slipping between rocks.
 
 
 
In: Group Practice Journal ©1987 American Medical Group Association (AMGA).

Buffalo Synod

Freistadt, Wisconsin was settled in 1839 by immigrants from Prussia, a chunk of land in what is now Germany and Poland, next to the Baltic Sea. A history compiled for the village church’s 150th anniversary says their hard journey to a new home was a search for religious freedom.

 They apparently kept looking for it after they arrived. A few steps down the hill from the only crossroad in the village, on the north side of the road, lies the Buffalo Synod cemetery. It has a wrought iron fence, freshly painted glossy black, sheltering the remains of a few dozen souls who opted for their own spot, rather than the original Missouri Synod church cemetery right across the road. Their particular search led to a different conclusion, part of an internal Lutheran immigrant doctrinal dispute that began shortly after their arrival and continued until after the close of the United States Civil War.

Herman looks after the little manicured plot, right next to his own front yard. He tends it out of tradition, he says. Not his tradition, actually, as he goes to the church across the road and expects to end up in its overflow cemetery hundreds of yards south.

But the Buffalo Synod’s grass is in his neighborhood, which he takes to include the box elders and shaded turf overlying his alienated underground neighbors. There is always the highly unlikely possibility that an ancestor of his might be buried there, which makes it easier, though no one comes by to decorate the graves and Herman considers short grass plenty of recognition.

Neighborliness, that’s what it is. I hope if I end up in a neighborhood going on that long, someone cares about me the way Herman does. I’d be planted in a little plot with blackened gray stones reaching toward the sky, left by fellow ancestors adherent to beliefs lost on those living in the mere present. And Herman would drop by to cut the grass.

I’d enjoy hearing the weed whacker whizzing overhead. Herman might even care about me more than the guy on the riding mower in the original church cemetery across the road trying to make his way between the stones, the ones with names everybody recognizes as surnames on local mailboxes. I’d love the chance to give Herman the separateness he constructs for himself every so often, escaping from his world into our present, a quiet place, fenced and green, a little space of solitude shared by fellow searchers.

Polio in Our Time

At age ten, I received what I believed to be a veterinary-size dose of gamma globulin in each buttock and passed out cold in the doctor’s waiting room. A polio epidemic had taken down a boy in an adjacent block of our neighborhood. Some lady hollered at us to get out of the river we played in or we would get sick and die and my parents were taking no chances.

A couple years later as a newspaper carrier I plopped on people’s porches an edition headlining Dr. Jonas Salk’s discovery of an injectable polio vaccine. More shots. Smaller. This time everyone I knew got them, waiting in linoleum-floored rooms with old magazines all over town.

I saw only two cases of polio in my practice, one in an unvaccinated adult, the other in a recently vaccinated child. Diagnosed the first, missed the second. Never saw a case in training, had to look it up. I checked out a possible third case with an elderly pediatrician. He had finished his hospital rounds and was putting on his coat to go home. He assured me that from the history it wasn’t polio. What the child had, he couldn’t say, but “It’s not polio.” He had seen hundreds of cases of real polio.

It was a relief to hear. You can only get so much from books.

In Medical Humanities 35, 2, 2009